Sunday, January 13, 2013

Happy New Year, Nikki ☺

I started the year with a bang, literally.

I've been sick for the remainder of 2012 that I hardly noticed that my health was cascading downhill - and the only thing I had in mind was stress.

Well, easy for me to say. I had to have myself checked before I figured that it was something worse. There was a calcification in my right kidney, an almost-kidney stone. Doctor said that it was due to my negligence of having to pee when needed, and not my diet. Heck, voiding wasn't hard, so never did I associate it with UTI.

But then again, in so many ways I am thankful; because it could've been worse.

The same goes with Walter. We were under the impression that he acquired hernia, only to find out that he had a pigsa that didn't even look like one; given that it didn't ripen it looked like a regular lump. But he was in so much pain, so much that it made me cry. Funny though, he was the one confined when he was the stronger one. Haha. ☺

As of today I am relishing one of my last few days off at work. I thought 65 days of work would reap benefits, I was wrong. I got a merry mix of friends and problems, all worthwhile.

Although the holidays came and went in one clean sweep, I am, as far as I can tell, am happy. I really am. Amidst so much hardships, so much pain, God has kept me afloat - He managed to shower me with blessings, known and in disguise. I cannot say that 2012 has been mean to me, and neither can I say that it has been good - but I am thankful, I really am. For 365 days filled with lessons and experiences.


Here's one of the few pictures taken while Walter was confined. This was the time that I was recovering from UTI. We managed to look after one another, we managed to be happy.We may not have welcomed the new year with a bang, but we've proven ourselves that through thick and thin, happy and sad, sick or not, we can make it.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Pimple Fever and the Great Chararat

you can count them
prick them
loathe them
privately or publicly

they can be a pain
in the ass
in the face
wherever, whenever

they come in all
shapes and sizes
damn
it sucks to be you

they ruin you at your best
highlight you at your worst
get out of my face
get out of my life

what menace
are we talking about?
one that is pus-filled?
or one that is pus-like?

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Sanity

Amidst all the insanity I manage to stay afloat.

Life hasn't been all that cruel nor has been all that nice, but hey, hard work does pay off - one by one. :)

Saturday, October 13, 2012


Hello happiness - I've waited for you for so long. :)

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Once Upon A Time

In the life of a girl like me, decision-making was hell.

As a matter of fact, it is ongoing.

Pretty please, I need a sign here? :(

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Early Morning

3am
Mind wandering
Looking
Searching
Morpheus, where are you?

Mind exhausted
Heart, tired
Slowly
Gently seeping
Yawn.

I remembered the
Pillow
Buried myself in it
And it smelled like your
Hair

Flooding
Rushing
nostalgia
No,
Nostalgia.

I will never get to sleep.

...but then again

Hopes are always high, always hoping for the best.

*fingers crossed*


Lord, enough of this madness. I can use a little sanity, if it isn't too much to ask. A few more days to go, just a few more. It would be just grand if You let me be tad more happy. I love you.