... for a good year, thank you Lord.

I feel as if I have totally neglected this blog when it had played such a big part in my life. ANYHOO, this'll come in bullets. A lot of things have happened althroughout the latter part of 2013 and this year as well. So yeah, let's see what I can come up with.

• I switched jobs. Apparently the work that made me skinny took toll on me, eventually. It took me to the point of utter leanness that I easily got sick. Pfft. I moved to Australian car insurance. Even the morning shift was pretty refreshing, for a change. But that had been July last year. And, being the perpetual perfectionist, I have found another reason to leave. So with what other people say: if you're not happy, leave. Lol.

• I GOT MARRIED!!! ☺☺☺ Now, who would have thought of THAT except for me HAHAHA :)) yes, I did, fortunately. I married the Karate Kid of my wildest dreams. We tied the knot in a simple civil ceremony with only Don and Eurik as witnesses and guests at the same time. Given that Walter is more of the no-nonsense, I-don't-want-a-lot-of-people kind, we agreed to just have the two with us during that day. So yeah, I am officially Mrs. Peckson since December 12, 2013.☺

• I am now an expectant mother.♥ I am totally in love with the idea of it, and we are expecting our first child. I am due in two weeks as I write this, and I do not feel anything but excitement and jitters as the big day nears. By the way, he's a little boy. ♥

• I am sooo grown-up now.  Well, not entirely. There's still a lot of growing up to do. But Walter and I are now together, we budget like crazy, we allocate enough for the baby's needs (which, in the not-so-distant past was for leisure mainly) and we argue about who's to make the bed. We argue about our daily intakes and we talk about the past like best friends reminiscing like crazy. We trust each other, we respect each others passions, and I still cry when he comes home late from work (WHAT). So yeah. A longer list would be wonderful, but that would just spark crass jealousy from imaginary seethers. Lol.

I missed writing, really. I just hope that when Daken comes out I'd have more of the time and energy to get back to this; being a mom wouldn't be a joke no matter how you look at it. But I am constantly assured that it would be challenging - never easy, but always rewarding.\

Let's see if I can get back in two weeks. ♥

Nothing else can break my heart like...

Work That Makes Me Skinny

I don't even know how to react to such.

So yeah, at long last, gotten the pay i've been long waiting for. Better than settling for entry-level digits. Not toxic, not stressful, but awfully far. I have to walk from MRT Ortigas to Emerald. The funny thing is I have not maintained my weight the way I wanted it to turn out - skinnier than expected. Why, I've gotten my weight back circa junior year. Walter says I look like a lollipop. Well, he looks like a skinny Logan. LOL

Plants vs. Zombies

Remmy when you played Plants vs. Zombies there would be a part where you would be informed that you were about to reach a final wave of monsters? Your adrenaline rush shoots the roof, you wouldn't know what to shoot first, and you're torn whether you'd fight for your lawn or just die.

Thing is, I've been there. Only not the final, but just the second wave.

The past few weeks haven't been kind, as a matter of fact.With the Woman Hitler breathing fire down my throat and her Gnome Apprentice sending me hate texts, life for me and Walter was pathetic. I've heard accusations here and there, stories here and there, and lies - here and there. Tiring. Sick. Just another way to wreck such a wonderful union.

On the bright side, amidst the numerous arguments and the gazillion adjustments, we're on our way to making things work out - not just for myself, not just for himself, but for both of us. Never have I seen such dedication from a man so naive from life's meanies. And I just love him for that.

Eventually, we'll permanently move out. He loves his job very much, and so do I. We'll be tried and tested for as long as these people will continue to take the fun out of it, but that doesn't mean it would change us enough to leave each other hanging. For we know that God will be at our side, as long as we believe and as long as we stay strong. :)

Every Day's A New Day

Every day's a new day in love with you 

With each day comes a new way of loving you 

Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wonder 

And if all my dreams come true 

I'll be spending time with you 

A few days ago we celebrated our fifth month together. Not that we're rushing things to make it look and sound longer, but I can say though is that we've been through a lot - and not everything has been easy for the both of us. A number of adjustments here and there, a ton of arguments whenever, wherever; understanding, understanding, and more understanding.

We may have our differences and similarities and sometimes they don't work to our advantages, but we learn to compromise - that is really a big something in growing up.

When you start planning your future, that's something. But when you start planning your future with someone who's decided on spending it with you, now, that really IS something.

I'll be in it for the long run, I promise. <3>

this never happened before

I have never really had a Valentine's date.


Ever.

Impossible as it may seem, yes, I have never ever have gotten myself one. Under so many odd circumstances. Haha. Lame, I know.

Walter had been planning for the big red date for centuries, and I have told him a million times over not to get me anything - not that I didn't like getting something, but I usually found Vday pretty much like gastos daay - lovers get to find the excuse of expecting gifts for no apparent reason. So yeah, he didn't get me a bouquet of flowers nor those fancy-schmancy chocolates.

He got me these:

It's a need, not a want. Not your typical Vday gift, but hey, this pair will surpass everything; from the wilted flowers to the crumpled candybar wrappers. Pretty much like the love i've been waiting for all my life. :)

Thank you, Walter John Peckson. I love you so much.

From Walter

Supposedly he wasn't to know about me posting this, but he didn't save it at all.  Such a waste. I didn't really ask for a letter, it's just that his friend was tad too assuming. Haha. Fantastic, really. So here goes:

Balita ko gus2 m dw ng sulat galing sakin psenxa n kung ngaun ko lng ngawaL. Kaya ito na paiikliin ko nlng kasi andami ko gus2 isulat. Mahal na mahal kita Maria Francesca Domenica Trinidad Estrada, ngcmula s simpleng patingin tingin kaya naalala ko na gus2ng gus2 ko ung mga mata mong napakaganda, ung buhok mong check k ng check kung nghihiwalay n sabay suklay, ung kilay m n kayang mgexpress ng 5 emotions per second, ung ilong mong ndi pantay ang butas, ung labi mong may tuka, ipin mong maliliit, ung kutis m n napaka lambot at ang binti mong ndi pantay.  

Ikaw ung babaeng hinahanap ko, pangarap ko at ang mahal na mahal ko. Sinuklian mo ung pag-ibig n hinahanap ko noon pa.. pinaramdam m sakin ung pgmamahal n akala ko s kwen2 lng natutupad.  Habang buhay kita pagsisilbihan at habang buhay kita mamahalin.. Oo mas bata aq alam kong natatakot ka dahil madami p ang pwedeng mangyare. Syempre madami talaga! Mgttrabaho tau, mgbubukod tau, papakasal, bibili ng sariling bahay, palalakihin ang magiging anak natin at tatanda taung mgkasama, Masaya at ngmamahalan. Odiba andame at ndi un madali  :,) antagal kitang hinanap antagal m dn nagtago.. pero dumating naman aq sa buhay m kaya “Hi miss J I’m sorry I’m late e2 nga pala puso ko <3 oh="" pakialagaan="">

Alam m ung tula? E2 b ung tagalog ng color red? Nyahahahaha joke..

Panu b un?

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Kilala mo si Jared?

Utot nya blue!

Hahahaha joke lng J English ito kaya pgpasenxahan m n J

Everybody wishes for their one true love

Where people starts to set their hopes from above

Some lucky ones were granted

But most people were disappointed

So I started believing in fairy tales

They say true love’s kiss never fails

By a simple gift of chocolates

True love Awaits.

For a long time I thought I found the one

For so long I have chosen only one

But like all stories must have an end

Only I have a very bitter end

For three long years I was damaged

I blamed everyone, I was deranged

Although I have few relationships

My heart can still feel the hardships

So I gave up and let go

From that moment so long ago..

I grew up and became stupid

I was hurt but not because of cupid

I gave up on myself and on love

For there’s no such thing as love

I cried every night asking “why”?

Now my eyes were dry

I lost faith and confidence

Self-respect and patience

I became pig headed and boastful

And yet I remain hopeful

To still find the one

Somewhere, someone

I searched everywhere

To find love and happiness to share

I wore a mask to hide my true self

My vulnerable, mushy self

Because guys should be tough

We should be like a rock, Rough

I searched and yet I failed again

My feelings were abused yet again.

Until you showed up

Your eyebrows were up

My hopes were up

Until literature was up

A girl with intelligence and beauty

So majestic and yet always on duty

You’re so high you’re way out of my reach

I can see another heart break within my reach

So I searched again for someone within my reach

I searched everywhere

And I still found you there

I ignored the signs

Believing you can’t be mine

Still, destiny seems playful

Because I ended up hopeful

So many signs and yet I’m unsure

Is this love or just another allure?

Opportunities came for you and me

Yet I remain uncertain about you and me

Until you gave me an opportunity

To express my love sincerely and secretly

Yes! I have found a way

I shall ignore you by day

But at night time

We have our special time

Talking like close friends with connections

Secretly hiding my affections

Is this love yet again?

Is it joy or pain?

Still I took the opportunity

To express my feelings secretly

I have chosen to be by your side

I have seen your sweet and gentle side

This is it I declared

I am prepared!

Hoping, pleading that it is you

All this time I wanted to say I Love you

Have I found the perfect girl?

My happiness, my love, my pearl

A huge hand slapped me in the face

I met the one worth the chase

The one who would slip away

If I don’t propose straight right away

Oh the joy I have found you

My love my life is you

Although I was shaky

I’ll take the risk for you Nikki

To declare my love in person

To look in your eyes with emotion

Finally to someone worth the trouble

We are now a couple

Oh the joy I have found you

Nikki, I Love you