Sting, Stang (?!) Stung

It pretty much does.

Just like a sore joint in a cold weather, an old incision on a rainy day. It haunts me like a ghost, unwavering, always there to remind you of something, someone who used to exist.

Do I still try to find the truth that not all is gone? Do I still want to find the truth behind the lies? Am I already facing bitter reality?

I wouldn't really know if you gave me answers to the many questions you left lying on the floor.

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away..


Fuck. Relapse. Fuck relapses. I'd rather die than to go through this again. :(

For Lack of Things to Do (and moping because of dear Brandon)

Found my peborit. I really dunno if these things are like 100% accurate, but hell I don't care. Happy pills.

You Are Excited

You carry others with your strength. You can be strong for friends and family when they're not able to be. You are a very inspiring person. You show others that dreams can come true. You take charge naturally, and people don't usually stop you. You are confident and competent. You think the best days and years are yet to come. You are ready for the future.

How Are You Feeling?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

...and another:

Your Guy Could Bring You Home

When it comes to meeting the parents, you're cool and calm. In fact, you're so self assured, you may forget to try to impress them. Work that famous charm a little more, and your boyfriend's family will be loving you.

Would He Bring You Home to Mom?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

(Nikki, bitter. :P)

You Are Outspoken

You are a confident person who doesn't second guess big decisions. You trust yourself to know what's right. You are happy to share your ideas about any subject. You don't mind expressing controversial opinions. You know where you want to go and how you're going to get there. You are very goal directed. You are extremely motivated and driven. People wonder where you get all your energy from.

The Coffee Craving Test

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

(some coffee whore I am. hahaha)

You Are Ruled by Mercury

You love to talk, and you're darn good at it. You are a very outgoing person. You are a good communicator, and you can get your message across to almost anyone. You are very energetic, and you get restless easily, especially when you're by yourself. You are extremely curious and even a bit brainy. You love to investigate everything.

What Planet Rules You?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

(told you, unstoppable. :)) )

You Should Never Date a Libra

Indecisive, flirtatious, and downright deceptive - your Libra will tell you what you want to hear. Problem is they'll be telling *everyone* what they want to hear. Instead try dating: Pisces, Taurus, Virgo, or Scorpio

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

You Are a Geek

You definitely have some nerdy ways, but you've evolved into something way cooler - a geek. You are free spirited and quirky. You're proud of who you are, and you've got style. You may not fit in completely, but you don't have any problems socializing. You're witty, smart, and very knowledgable. You believe that everyone should embrace their inner geek!

Are You A Nerd or a Geek?

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

(embracing the inner geekiness. hahaha)

So I Can Still Flip the Bird at the Screen?

Cold feet.

Well, not exactly cold "cold" feet, but for the nth time I'd just want to run wild and forget I ever submitted and almost killed myself with that weeklong crap. For whatever reason I'd still love to have the mediocrity of being a regular employee and going on home with no reasons to stay back at work. Mygod.

Nikki, for the nth time over, is on the way to growing up. Yay.

Easily frustrated being, I'm thankful for the ears that never got tired of listening. For Shelu who calls herself another dumdum and a half and a kunsintidora, for Joy who's the constant cheerleader.. Only 2 of the most cherished people on the planet.

Let's see if I'll have my heart eaten up later. Whew. :s

Yeah, You and Your Elevator Shiznit.

For the past few days never-as in never-in my history of self-induced sleep deprivation drama have I felt so drained.

Will all these pay off? I am just so hoping.

If it doesn't, then it really isn't meant to be.

Last Saturday I had to drag my mother and Gabbi all the way to Roxas Boulevard to pimp myself. Not that I wanted it, I just needed to. Lait festival, as I may call it.There was a skinny Boss Ira wannabe (I soo love Boss Ira), Imelda Marcos wannabe, and the just-so-not-so-overweight wannabes. That, for you, is what you call excess baggage. HAHA.

Tidbits from last week:

• Elevator-shoe man.

You're so vain. Mind you, I'm taller than you. And you're not popular. Who says you are when I myself don't even know you exist. Major eew. Get a grip. I think you like me. After all, I wasn't asking for a cocky show.

• I love you coffee machine.


The savior of all saviors. If you don't want the peseta-worth coffee, settle for the luxurious vendo coffee. And when I say luxurious, that's settling for the costliest in the bunch. Vendo macchiato. True love.♥

• And all of a sudden I soo hate those shoes.


What's the big idea with the online selling and those hidden shiznit drama-mahs? There's this person who just can't get enough of the bullying and *kpoof* immediately jacked up the price for a pair of ballet flats. Psycho.

• So you think you got yourself a girly-girl? Think again.


And a wimp, for that matter. Excuse me sir, that doesn't end the story. You think i'd end this without even putting up a fight? No sir, no indeed. Nothing is worth fighting for if you know it's reparable, you know how, what and when to compromise, it makes you happy.

I can't believe I'm doing this again. And what a he-wimp you are.

• Revenge: sweet. Unknowing victim: sweeter.

*evil laugh*  'nuf said. :))

'Cause It's Nice To Know...

That I now know what I want. :)

Thing is, does it want me back? Only time can tell.

And I realized that there are some things that you're pretty much good living without.

Take a look at this. Looks familiar?

Somebody bite me. LOL. :)) Funny thing is you want to keep asking yourself if anything better's coming your way (truth of the matter is you're just waiting for Mulder and Scully to find traces of abduction).

Yes, I find myself missing the motherfucker for no reason at all. "He's not worth it", a friend of me told me a few days ago. Why don't I miss the man-whore and I miss the abducted being, she asks again. For what it's worth, for the pain, the dedication, for everything. He's the one I want.

But, as mentioned, he's not here. He's been abducted by aliens.

The next time there's another abduction I'll make sure that I go with those green men, if it takes being absent from work. I want that being back.

Kiss Sanity Goodbye

In a few hours from now I am about to do something that pretty much'll define what time's keeping me from leaving the office.

Good job. 11 AM? Somebody kill me.

Well, after 11 AM perhaps. If I make it out of the room alive.

*fingers crossed*

And He Ate My Heart.

Amazing. Just amaaaaazing. I can have myself hanged for being such a mofo.

Talk and talk, cry and cry. That's fine. Evereybody's entitled to a little emoting drama every now and then.

Question is until when.

Sometimes I just wish you just suffer the same dramatic bull I'm in, even more. I wish karma would have you get worse. Sometimes you should see life in a not-so-funny atmosphere anymore. 

But that's just all wishful thinking, and this is just me. And you perfectly know that I can't think that way when it comes to you. :(